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March 10, 2005
I'm not pregnant
But I was surprisingly so in my dream last night.
I don't even know if I could give a straight, linear retelling of the whole thing, but this is what I remember, in no particular order (except where logical, but it is a dream so suspend disbelief):
My water broke. This is the moment I realized I was pregnant.
I instantly started looking for a bag to put Gustav's snacks and toys in, becuase he was obviously going to be coming with me to the hospital, and I didn't have a bag packed for him.
I was in a textbook review meeting because I was suddenly a teacher viewing a sales presentation from a sales rep I know from my McDougal days. The whole time I'm in this presentation, I'm thinking, when should I go to the hospital?
I'm in some other kind of conversation, where I whisper to someone, "My water broke earlier." No one seems particularly concerned about this fact. I start thinking about the fact that I gave birth less than three hours after my water broke, and second births are supposed to be faster, so I should really watch my clock because I don't have much time before I REALLY need to get there. I think I even thought, why not labor a bit at home (or work or wherever I was at any particular moment).
???
I will say this: I was surprisingly very excited at the thought of having a second child when I realized I was about to have a second baby. I take that as a good subconscious sign. I often get caught up in the 'what if' game of bedrest and pregnancy complications, all of which cloud the excitement of the prospect at times. But we have just that: time.
Time makes you forget that kind of stuff, right?
Posted by janna at March 10, 2005 11:05 PM